What am I doing here?

So I guess the right thing to do is start this blog off with my intent.  I am a stay at home mom.  I have been for 8 years.  I have 3 kids, the older 2 of which, are in school.  My youngest just turned 1.  I LOVE these guys and wouldn't changed anything about them or the fact that I am with them everyday. I had my first child at the age of 20.  Pregnant at 19.  I went from living with my Mom to living with my husband.  This might sound like a sob story but believe me it's not.  I love my life.  I have the best husband and the best kids imaginable! I was and am truly blessed.  However, I went from being a kid to being an parent and wife. I didn't get that me or "self discovery" time that people get when they move out and live on their own for awhile.  Neither did my husband since he is younger than me.  There are days where I get depressed and feel like other than being a mom I have nothing to give to the world.  All I know about me is that I am a mom.  But kids grow up, they move out and you are on your own.  What than?  Who are you than?  No one.  I am no one because for 8 years all I have been is a Mom. I take care of the kids, I worry about the kids, I cook for the kids, I clean for the kids, I nurse them, I feed them, I read to them, I parent them.  They are my world and that's great.  I am a good mom. I am good to them.  But in that process, I lost myself.  Aside from the kids and being a wife, what do I do?  What are my interests?  What do I like to do for fun?  I don't know.    I honestly have no idea.  I crochet a bit, a like to read and bake.  Are these passions?  Not really.  Just time fillers.  What are my passions?  thinking.... thinking...... thinking........ I got nothing.  What are my talents?  I'm a nice person.  That's about it.  So, I've made bucket lists,  and made talked about things that might be fun to do but nothing ever gets done. I've read ideas to try new things and learn new talents but I still sit on my butt reading about ideas. So I am deciding to put things into action.  I am not going to wait till I am older to do bucket list items or wait for the right time to do something, because the right time will never come.  I am now on a journey to explore, to learn, and discover.  New talents, new ideas, new places..  time to find out who I am.  Join me on my journey.  Give me ideas! <3